Youthfullessness

This is post serves more of a reminder to me than to anyone else.

I feel that a lot of people have to tell themselves to not grow up so fast, and to enjoy youth while its in your fleeting ignorant grip. Youth is also a state of mind.

Being weighed down by the world, forgetting to dream, abandoning your optimism. These all lead to the decline of a youthful state of mind.

While i don't think that I'm losing my optimism or dreams, i would venture to say I'm getting a little weighed down.



I'm 21, 22 in a few months. I can still smell the fire smoke and summer air. I can still taste the endless waves of mountain dew. Still feel all the tremulous emotions of being a young kid confused by the world.

No, im not worried about losing my youth. Im worried about my youth losing me.



I guess I'm just afraid that this whole "growing up" ordeal will deprive me of my sense of adventure and humanity.



The world as I see it now is a lot more clean cut. I guess i just miss the dramatic wonder when the world seemed a lot smaller.







And let me tell ya, the world seems HUGE now.





It just feels like I'm just going through the motions now. I don't know how to describe it to you, but It just feels...easier almost.





What I'm trying to say here is this: I don't want to lose touch with the part of me that craves the adventure and excitement of the new world. I don't want to fall into a steady decline of steady job, 1.5 kids, and a white picket fence.

I just need to be left in the rock tumbler a little longer.